I just got done watching an old favorite Disney movie of mine called Read it and Weep. It is about a girl who keeps a journal is the style of a fictional world with an alter ego named Isabella, Is for short. Her journal accidentally gets printed out an turned in as an essay and ends up winning a school wide contest. The result is that the rest of the journal becomes an instant best selling book.
Jamie (the main character), then, in turn loses herself, and takes on the traits of her alter ego which was named Isabella (“Is for short”). Is is everything Jamie thought she wanted to be. Through the course of the movie, she learns that being herself is all that she needs to be. And the people she thought wanted as friends weren’t all they were cracked up to be.
Why am I giving you the synopsis of a Disney movie? Well, the thing is, I think every writer has an alter ego. Some writers might say that they have multiple alter egos. For me, I have just one, and her name is Victoria. Victoria is everything I want to be. And that is never more clear than lately.
Victoria…Tori, she likes to be called, is a classically trained soprano (which I used to be) , she’s good with children (which I am), and she tries really hard to be loyal to those who are good to her (also me). When she gets hurt by those she thinks of as friends, she tend to take it personally for a day or two before deciding that they probably weren’t really friends to begin with. That’s something I try to strive for, but let me be perfectly honest here: I take a lot of things personally. Especially when it’s me personally they’re hurting.
I wonder how Tori would’ve handled the recent and blatant bullying that I’ve recently encountered. I won’t go into detail, but let’s say that my self-confidence has taken quite the hit. I know this might sound weird, but I need to meditate and see what I come across with her guidance? I just… never thought I’d encounter that with elderly people. I thought the days of being bullied were behind me.
But yeah. Someday I might have to start a journal similar to the one that Jamie had in Read it and Weep. I don’t know if Victoria would feature, but it would be an interesting experiment to see how I see my family, friends, and enemies, in a fictional setting.